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Haven`t been here for two days .
Well , at least I have some amazing news ! Buuuut I also have bad news .
I`ll start with the bad ones , so the good ones seem even better afterwards .Huh .. I`m still doing drugs .. Haven`t stopped ..
But the amazing , great , beautiful , news are .. I fessed up ! Met my sis today , long time , no see , you know .. She did know I was doing drugs , but what she didn`t expect is that I am doing them few times a day , every single day .. I told her everything , we had a heart-to-heart talk and she is there to support me . 🙂
Now for the grand finale – I TOLD IT TO MY DAD .
What I was expecting – anger . I thought he will pack my bags and throw me out the house .
BUT INSTEAD he accepted me the way I am . Dont get me wrong , he DID NOT give me a load of heroin and say : “Good girl , I`m proud of you !”
Daddy was crying . It broke me.. He said that he could never imagine his little princess taking a hit in the public bathroom . Oh , God , I feel sooo guilty right now . I hurt him . He thinks that he`s the one to blame..
Also , he said that he`s is proud of me . For telling him the truth . For being brave and taking another step towards freedom . Told him about the Narcotics Anonymous meetings . I thought that he will judge me , but he said that , if I feel the need to go to these meetings , than I should most definately go !
We stayed up all night . And talked . I showed him my hands . Yes , he was shocked as hell .. But at least he knows the truth now .
And thats another step . ❤